These past few days have been heart breaking for me, some terrible news that is not mine to share right now has shaken me to the core. I find myself helpless to fix something that seems to be beyond anyone ability to fix and yet I feel like some how I should be able to. I am reminded that life is not fair, that bad things happen to good people, and that my beliefs do not hold comfort when it comes to death.
I am woman of reason, logic, nature, and wonder. I am not religious. What comforts others during these times does not comfort me. Oh how I wish I believed as others do in times like these. I really do. I have to instead find comfort in other ways and I was struggling to function. My husband and children of course knew just what to do, it was time to go explore, time to go and play.
After the park we managed a walk around a pond. In the distance a family of geese swam peacefully in the cool evening air. I wished they would come closer as I snapped some photos of them. I had turned from the water for a bit to watch some ducks trying bribe nonexistant food away from my children who gleefully ran away from the insisting ducks. The children then turned the tables and decided to chase the ducks off reminding the ducks that people should not be their source of food, silly wild ducks.
When I turned back to the water it took a moment to find the family of geese. They had come to shore just a 20 yards away. Sending 4 loud and happy children to their father a bit away my 5 year old and quietly went to see if we could get a closer look at the gooselings. The parents where rather trusting and unlike the ducks no one in the family looked towards us for food. The little ones followed their parents all the while ignoring us and taking every change to peck the ground and grass for food.
I felt so happy for them. All together, two parents, all seemingly healthy. The sorrow not ever far from my mind that not all are so lucky. The moment though was peaceful, hopeful, beautiful, and it helped.
My little one was quietly fasinated by the family, dreaming of petting of a little one of course while respectful of the fact that it would not be good for them and chances are as I had softly warned her, the parents would bite if she tried. I had let her know the parents would not allow us to get too close, in fact I was rather surprised at how close they let her get. They didn’t seem to mind us, and I was thankful.
I can’t say my heart is breaking any less now. I can say though that the moment brought some much needed peace and beauty.
im sorry for whatever it is that you cannot share and feel down about. im glad that you found some comfort in the sights and sounds of mother nature. i hope that things will be better for you all soon!
I’m so sorry you are going through hard times. Sometimes, I wish I was religious. It’s easier to cope with heartbreaking experience when you believe it was all written somewhere and therefore, inevitable. I wish you and your lovely family all the best!
Thank you so very much for your kind words. It helps to know I am not alone in wishing I believed differently if only to bring some much needed comfort. I am having a specially hard time fuctioning and need to get a grip so that I can be useful to others who will need support far more than I do.
I have also struggled with this from time to time and I have no answers for you. I have no idea what happened but what ever it was made you feel bad and you can’t find any peace from it. Take time to search your soul and maybe you will find comfort.
Beautiful and inspiring photos. Nature can be very healing.
nice family!
I am sorry for whatever pain you’re going through and pray that God will give you the strength to bear the pain.
Such beautiful photos you’ve shared here. Yes, the beauty of nature is a balm to the soul.