Sadly like other NaNoWriMo writers, I have left my novel behind. I am very sad about this and want to pick it up again but find it so very hard. My goal was to have something nice to publish mid-year and I am really not sure I am going to be able to do that now. I still have to finish and then let my inner editor run free to shred it and rebuild it into something readable. “Not enough time” says the little voice in my head. “You might as well give it up” it adds to my misery.
But I loved it… and yet I have let it fade. Is this what happens to some couples in love I wonder? I have not experienced that in 13 years and never hope to. I guess this a reminder that love is work and you have to put constant effort and energy into it. For me love comes easy, taking the time to write however, not so much! -sigh-
I sit here tonight with my three youngest children having an indoor picnic while hotty husband and our oldest are out at guitar lessons. They take the time for things they love so why shouldn’t I? I wish NaNoWriMo carried through the whole year as it really does motivate and clearly I need the motivation!
