In a world where people are living older and older these days, is 35 old? On my birthday today I found myself contemplating my life and future. I feel old in so many way, mostly because fibromyalgia and other auto immune issues. I don’t know what life is like at this age without the pain and all the other things that come with my issues. Do other mothers at this age feel so old I wonder?
As I watch videos of women going from normal looking to then with make up looking like models I wonder if I am doing myself a disservice by only using make up from time to time and never as talented as the brave youtubers. Perhaps if I became an expert with make up I would feel like I look less old and then feel like?
Who has the time? Lets face it, I struggle like so many Moms to get it all done and I fall behind. I tend to not put myself first. I wonder though, with my grandmother having lived to 96 years old, how will I feel in 60 years if I am lucky enough to live that long? Heck, how will I feel in 10 years? I can only guess at this point.
One thing I know for sure, I am lucky. I am lucky in love, family, and friends.
While we struggle like most families to make ends meet and live in an old home with many issues, I still live a very blessed life. I spent the day with husband and the kids, cuddles and cards and cake. My day ended like this:
A hot bath, counting my blessings. I hope in 60 years I will still get to end my days with husband in such lovely ways!
