Birthday Wishes

  This adorable image was shared on my facebook wall by someone wishing me a Happy Birthday. It made me smile. I thought I would share it here with you. I am not sure who took the photo and would love to give them credit, so let me know if you know who they are! It is so sweet!

Many people have asked me what I want for my Birthday and for the holidays. I find it hard this year to think of anything anyone could buy me. My desires are deep but in ways that money can not help with. I wish I could live close to my Meme and help my parents with her. They do such a great job but they deserve a break. I want to help because it would make me feel good, she took good care of me growing up, I want to return that. Being a military family though, we don’t get to pick where we move, and so it isn’t possible. That doesn’t keep me from wishing for it though.

I wish certain family members would over come addiction. Money for them just seems to make it all worse and no one can make them change but themselves.

I wish other family members would find stability and security. It can’t be given, it has to be created by them and I just don’t know how to help. It isn’t a wish anyone can gift to me.

I wish I didn’t hurt so much. There is no cure though. Pain free time can’t be bought for me. I just keep thinking that if I didn’t hurt so much I could help others more and helping others just makes me happy, it makes me feel like I am worthy of life.

I wish so many more things for other people I do not even know. They are not realistic so I will not even list them. I am sure you have these wishes too though. Since last week, the school shooting, I think we all do.

I have love, I have healthy beautiful smart children, I have a home and bills are paid. I am very lucky. I wish though the things I want so badly would be things I can actually get. I am having such a hard time thinking down to earth like so I can give others a list of wants that are not beyond control.

In the end, maybe I already have what I need, people to care about and to love and who love me.

Do you have impossible wishes this year too?